Tuesday, May 3, 2011

The green lizard

It was a sunny day with a few clouds... nothing spectacular, but somehow I had a strange feeling about it. "Use the sun, Zhana" Ive told myself... "U need some Vitamine D..." So I was retrowalking... and thinking.

What have I reached in the past few years? Where have I been, where did I want to go, and where did I arrive? Thinking of my past, I was analyzing my behaviour.
Did I grow? Yes, I did somehow, but not enough.
Walking backwards refreshed my point of view. I am always rushing somewhere, always on the run, never looking back... I thought it could help me to avoid feelings I had, but I was wrong. We cant move on in a better direction if we dont learn by our mistakes and take a few moments to rest.

Now I am walking several weeks, almost every day backwards and the more I am walking, I'm realizing my mistakes... Looking at myself I see I dont talk anylonger that much, I do more, but for my inner peace. My energy is different.

As I was walking backwards Ive turned to walk regular and saw I can run faster, but Ive decided to change my direction again...Why do I do this?- To recognize the small things better...

Suddenly Ive stopped... A green lizard was running over my feet... He was pretty fast, but Ive felt his movement on my shoes. I was amazed. He was sparkling greenish and with some yellow dots. This little greenish lizard made my day, my thoughts were running wild. So Ive scribbled him afterwards. Not caring much of how it would look like, Ive just wanted to safe this moment. And I did.

In the past I had a lot of awesome moments, which r giving me the energy to live in this one and hopefully in all. Everyday I am trying to collect one more, just in case of a disaster ...or just to give somebody else a smile without any reason. It is not like I wasnt doing this before, but now I feel it "more".
Like this little green lizard I want to give anybody who is passing my way a sparkling smile.
My brain is changing the direction, and I am giving myself time and space to re-think about my goals and my way...

Monday, May 2, 2011

Welcome to my RetroWalking diary

Ive decided to start a blog about my experience about Retro Walking, because Ive choosen this to be my favorite sport. I dont have much time for sports in general and I'm not really sporty, but Retro Walking is just creative, and as an artist I love creative things. My work isnt allowing me to take time for many activities, but I need this! Since I'm getting bored really fast, I need something what is different.
Today an old lady asked me while I was walking: What r U playing? .. and this is exactly the point it is like playing! I feel like a little child who is playing on the street since I'm retro-walking... I will try to upload my experience with it and every information I can get. In Japan it is common to do Retro Walking. And now its time to spread the word and tell everybody who wants to try something new.
Well, LUDI INCIPIANT! This will be my RetroWalking Diary and Im pretty excited about it!
with love
Zhana D' Arte